4/21/13
Letting go is the only choice I have right now. I’ll try and try and try until I let go. I’ll make my own conclusion. I’ll find a way….even if it hurts. Like I say everyday, lets be friends again sometime soon? Since today is the last day, I guess I’ll confidently say that I WILL let go of my feelings for you.
4/20/13
I have so many questions to ask you. Why do you still act awkward with me? Why do you always ignore me now? Why don’t you talk to me? Why can’t you like me?…… As much as I want to know, I can’t let these questions hold me back anymore. I can’t feel sad or mad because its over. What’s done is done. I’m almost to my goal and when I reach my goal, we can be good friends again.
04/19/13
“You have to reach a conclusion” How can I? My brain is saying give up but my heart is saying I’ll regret it. It’s too much. Why do I have to be so complicated. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I want to be done with this. But I just can’t. I still like you. Heart, why do you do this to me
4/18/13
The small little hope is gone but not my feelings for you. Why? I don’t know. I don’t know what should I do or if I should do anything. I don’t know what should I believe. I’m just really confused as of now
4/17/13
Maybe I could be over you sooner than usual. I just don’t care about what you do now. I just want to be done with my feelings for you. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I want to get OVER you. I’m almost there. I’m almost over you. Thanks for finally listening to me heart. This is the right thing to do. So lets move on.
4/16/13
It felt like you disappeared today. I didn’t know where you were but what was different was that I didn’t care this time. But I know it’s only going to be this time. I still like you. I’m not going to deny it but I’m moving on. I can’t let this hold me back. We can be brother and sister again. I really hope so.
4/15/13
I’m done. I’m done with all the pain I’ve been through just for liking you. I have to move on now even if I have to force myself. I can’t lie that I miss you but I’m just done. I thought we clicked but I was wrong. We never did. It was just my mind playing tricks on me. I’m done. I’m just done with everything that has to deal with you. So please don’t make this hard for me.
4/15/13
I feel so retarded. You could’ve been talking about anyone else in the whole world but I decided to think that you were talking about me. I feel so damn retarded. Me thinking that you like me was all a lie. I lied to myself. Am I that dim-witted? Can I just run away. All my efforts were nothing. You never liked me. All I did was make it awkward. It was never meant to be. Hahaha I feel like a total dumbass. Thanks heart. Thanks for blinding me once again.
4/14/13
I really miss you. I do. But I know I have to go on without you. Leaving my feelings behind is going to be one of the hardest things to do but there’s no choice. You don’t like me. So I’m just done. But I really do hope we become friends after this
4/13/13
It’s a Saturday and all I did today was think about you. I miss you. All I want to do is see you. I feel like I’m obsessed with you but I know it’s wrong. You just like me like a brother. That’s why I’m trying to let go. Just for our friendship. Hooray for friendship right?
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